Hurricane Night

So as Hurricane Sandy hit the east coast, it is safe to say that most of the damage hit New Jersey and New York.  Maryland (where I am) got hit pretty bad, but not nearly as bad as the other two.  So I did a lot of thinking while locked inside haha.  I figured that my feelings are somewhat rooted to feelings of abandonment.  I am not sure where this is coming from, but every time I think someone is going to leave my life, I have a breakdown.  Not sure why though.  Something must have happened that I cannot remember at this time.  Anyway during the hurricane I did not do much of anything except exercise, and watch Family Guy.  I am feeling a bit better everyday, but I am still struggling.

ASIDE from that I am extremely excited for my classes next semester. I am taking 6 to 7 classes...which when I saw on my registration 19 to 20 credits...>.< Call me crazy, but I need to graduate soon. I am tired of not having money lol. I have to honestly say though I really enjoy college, it has really kept me going.  Anyway, I am taking Korean 102, Moving Images (video class), Black and White photography, Images in Korean Films, Advanced Topics in Art History, and a photography history class....ALSO in January I am taking Tai Chi and Print Media lol...I'm going to be a busy girl.  I don't think people realize how important an education is now a days.  Not just because you will be able to find a better job, but because it is a part of self exploration. You discover what you like and what makes you happy.  Now don't get me wrong, you can do that without going to college, I know there are plenty of successful people who have not gone, but I just feel it is important in order to get to know yourself, and develop life skills.

Anyway I sit here in my bed watching the Cleveland Show and updating my blog thinking why I even do this haha.  The reason is I feel that getting my thoughts out there help me to release tension..Which it does..On another note though, my weight loss is going well.  NOW when they say eat fruits and veggies, you SHOULD, not just because it is healthier...you can lose weight eating in moderation, but when you eat fruits and veggies your mind mentally feels better.  So I am going to try and eat more of those, because I think way too much.  I don't think much of myself either, and I don't know why.  I am a beautiful, talented, and smart girl, yet I can't see it. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through, I cannot find out how to get to know myself, and how to discover self love.  I am trying, but it hasn't gotten much better yet.  Maybe I am doing it wrong lol.  Maybe you call could help me. Let me know what you did to get over hardships in your life.  Maybe I am complaining about nothing, but a support group would be nice though.  Anyways, I will touch base later.

Ciao
J