Inner Struggle

So the past few days have been a bit difficult for me.  I miss my other family, I miss my old life sometimes, but I need to look at reality.  I was not happy with myself then. I'm trying very hard, but fighting with yourself internally is a very difficult fight. The most difficult part is remembering everything... I have been making efforts to keep busy, and keep moving, but this is a very lonely journey.

Yesterday I planned out the final details to this event that I am planning.  This has kept me very busy, but I need to be stronger.  The leaves here are changing colors now, so concentrating on that has kept me pretty happy.  There are plenty of photo opportunities which is pretty exciting haha.  I am currently working on a lot of different photo projects.  The longest one is this people project, where I photograph people in their natural environment in contrasting locations.  The images have to express raw emotion so its sort of a difficult project haha.  I used to be one of those people who thought that photography was not a form of art, but when my adopted mother told me that I should give it a try, I did, and was successful at it.  I really enjoyed it, and am going in a direction with it.

After this week I plan to take a mini personal photography trip, and get some nice images of the fall.  It is almost like painting. You set up the image, and your artistic interpretation will paint the picture inside the camera.  Aside from this I have been seeing my friends a lot, and reflecting the best I can on myself.  I have changed my look a little, and started eating a bit better, though the dreams haven't stopped coming.

Here is a link to my photography website, in case you would like to see some of my work.

My Website

Thanks for reading! I'll update soon.