Day 2

Ok so Day 2 was rough emotionally for me. I did not sleep at all the night before. Missing my kitty cat :( Also watched a scary movie and couldn't sleep lol. Well food wise I did good today. I had yogurt for breakfast, lunch was PBJ with reduced fat cheese on sea salt crackers and water. Fruit for snack, dinner was healthy choice soup and chicken. There was not alot of physical activity today. I was in school and I did a lot of walking around campus, as well as up an down a lot of stairs. Lol UMBC LOVES STAIRS! Emotionally I am going through a lot. I feel this tension inside of me building and building until the point where I feel so anxious I want to explode. But I am finding myself, and this is odd for me to say but I am becoming a bit religious through this process. Having faith in something higher than yourself gives us a feeling of security. I am starting to get joy out of small things. I have amazing friends and family. I am in love with the best man in this world, and most importantly I am starting to see myself for who I am. I guess I was just afraid of that person at first, because it would mean I have to come out of my comfort zone. Got the news today that I WILL be graduating this December. I am up for a huge adventure. The whole reason I began this journey was to establish self love for myself. I am way to hard on myself, and I often times pushed the people who were good to me away. Now I am surrounding myself with good people who genuinely care for me. I took so many things for granted in the past, but I will not do that anymore. I becoming a new person. I have no regrets...If I regretted anything I wouldn't be who I am today or where I am today. I am starting to have faith in myself again. And that is something worth fighting for.